Nervous.

I am a nervous person. Sometimes I can hide it extremely well, but the feeling is always there. Here are some of the examples of what I see myself doing in everyday life.

I cannot maintain eye-contact. If we are ever having a conversation and I look away in the first ten seconds, don’t be offended. This is natural for me. Even while I am talking to a customer at work, I cannot maintain it for longer than maybe thirty seconds.

I get really nervous during arguments and fights. Even if I am not involved in the altercation at all, I want to disappear. And if I am involved in the argument, you will probably get nothing but head nods and “I’m sorry” from me.

Sometimes I get uncomfortable watching movies. If there is a scene where a character is doing something to make them a little nervous, I also will become nervous. It seems like the stupidest thing, but I have to just look away during some movies.

I guess the point is that I hate this about myself. My calling as a Christian is to spread the love of Christ to unbelievers, but if I don’t have the courage to speak to them, how can I effectively convey the message?

This has been on my mind recently, and I wish that I could change this about myself, and “man-up,” so-to-speak. If any of you psychology majors out there can tell me what this means and what I can do to fix it, please enlighten me.

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